"The Better Path.."

“Faith is a living daring confidence in God’s grace, so sure and certain that a man could stake his life on it a thousand times.” Martin Luther

Understanding and truly living in true Faith has always been a hard thing for me to do. It’s difficult for me to really know what it even means to walk in Faith and have 100% confidence that something will or will not happen the way it is supposed to happen and be the way "Heavenly Father intended it to be". I am impatient. I am a "See before i walk" kinda girl.I make Plans. Lists. and most the time don't go down the road unpaved. In Church ever single Sunday i get reminded that we must live by Faith, not 90 %.. but 100%! I should 110% give all everything to my heavenly Father and let him (like he isn't already!) take the reigns, but time and time again right when i tell myself..Heather it is time, NOW..and start.. i get nervous, why? I'm not a crazy control freak (at least i don't think?) i just may think i want to reach my hand in see if i like it and if not pull it out. Now being a big bad adult and everyhting day and day again i am challenged with the question..do you have control? Is this my choice? and is your way the best way? most the time NO no no to all of the above, except sometimes you truly believe your way is what you need at the time...so sure you would do anything for that, but just because we feel "so sure" about it..does that make it true? For example: when my parents sat me down and told me they were moving thousands of miles aways from me when i was 19 i freaked..quarter life crisis freaked.(To some this may not sound like a big deal but to me..it was.) I couldn't imagine how that would work, and why i would want it to work,why did they want to leave me? i felt like i still needed my family so so much and that i couldn't live without them(which is still true)but as the things in the house started to get packed up and i started to realize this is for-real and you can't cry forever you have finals soon! i started to tell myself ok Heather find the good in this...there has to be some! and year by year it got more and more clear that this did happen for a reason and it was to my benefit (that i totally didn't see before) that he totally has a way way way better plan for us that we could ever even map out for ourselves! Kay and i both were so blessed by this path, more than we could have ever imagined!So why do we fight him? why do we think what we think should happen is right? This is just ONE small example of MANY times in my life where i have seen this take place. He knows us and wants us to take the "better path" but the point is we don't know what that path is for ourselves!!!I think we live in a world that makes living by faith going against the grain, our world doesn't believe what they don't see, they want to know it all now!..Now i know this whole post sounds childish and everyone in life already realizes this but me, but day in and day out i am still realizing this in my own life. I am light years away from knowing all the answers (obviously) but i am learning..slow ..haha. Every time things in life come up where i can choose to be sad things don't always go as planned or think about why, i am always inspired to start thinking and being aware of what i will get from this, and to use these things as a tool in my life to make me a better person.With Struggles we are going through now..to old things i was unsure of, i have to let go! and just Trust...just have Faith. Now i have this sweet child growing inside me i am constantly thinking about what we want to teach him, what i hope we are good examples of, and what we need to work on.More than ever now i feel my Heavenly Fathers love, his hand in everything i do. I feel so blessed to be chosen to be a mother, that my Heavenly Father has entrusted us and put SO much Faith in us with this little one that the first thing we should do is give that same faith back to him.
Im not sure where this is all coming from just some thoughts, but i hope we can all have a little more faith in things unseen,and know that our heavenly Father has bigger plans for us than we may ever dream of for ourselves "That the ending to the book of our life will exceed our grandest expectations"